trying to work it all out

you have to know what you want

and not let anyone stand in the way of that.

what you think is making you happy right now might end.

and then you sacrificed your happiness for a few moments of happy.

and then you're left with regret. 

and regret will eat you up at 3:10 in the morning when the wind is howling outside and no matter how many times you roll over the bed doesn't get any more comfortable. 

go and be happy.

but make yourself happy.

because really no one else can do it for you.

i wish 
i could take this feeling


right now,


and bottle it up.


then 
i would pour it 
into my tea


in the mornings. 



so i could feel happy everyday. 

but maybe 
without the sadness yesterday,


today


wouldn’t have felt like this 

h.r.d